23 Jul It’s ok to fall off
So I fell off. I got lazy and distracted and I fell off. I’ve been making excuses. I’ve been blaming my lack of writing due to shifting my focus on building the blog itself.
“If it doesn’t look pretty then no one will read it anyway,” is what I told myself.
Honestly, it’s a pretty lame excuse. It diverts from the whole purpose of why I started. I started for me. I started to hold myself accountable and hopefully resonate with a few people.
You know what it snowballed to?
I didn’t hold myself accountable here and it slowly (not so slowly actually) began transferring to other parts of my life.
I started sleeping in a little extra in the mornings and I’m back to waking up in a frenzy.
I stopped listening to the podcasts that played such a large role in kick-starting my day positively.
I got snappy again with my friends and my energy levels plummeted. My diet went to crap.
Worst of all – my mindset started switching from grateful to pessimistic again. The little things that I would have laughed off without a problem even just last week became enough to piss me off for a few hours, if not the whole day.
And you know what? It’s ok.
I recognize that true change takes time and effort and that I am not perfect.
What would not be ok is to recognize that I am falling off and not do anything about it. Mental health and a developing a positive mindset is an ongoing journey.
It also got me rereading the The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen R. Covey.
One of the biggest things that stuck out for me in this book is his talk about paradigms.
I’ll spare you the book summary but basically he dives into how real change comes from the inside out. Outside in doesn’t work for long and many of us fool ourselves temporarily by doing this.
Take care of yourself. Keep learning. There are no quick fixes.
If your integrity and principles aren’t clearly defined and laid out as the foundation of your goals, you will always find yourself falling back into old patterns and never getting ahead.
Also remember that everyone falls off sometimes and take it easy on yourself. We are all on different journeys with the hope of ending up at the same destination – the journey to finding true happiness.
P.S. Making websites is a lot harder than I thought so bear with me as I try and learn. : P